Hi, and welcome!
There's only something to reconcile for those who believe everything JW say is The Truth, isn't it?
Once you accept that maybe some JW rules or doctrines aren't right at all, you can allow yourself to form and hold your own beliefs without fear.
At any given time in history, were all JW rules and doctrines correct? Surely not, as many things have been revised through 'new understanding'.
I'm quite sure JW will continue to publish 'new understanding', don't you think so too? Logically that means at least some current JW rules and policies are wrong today, which might mean your own viewpoint is the correct one.
Why be afraid of your own mind and viewpoints if they may be more correct than current JW beliefs?
Anyway, the way forward is research, research, research. And not just from JW literature either. The JW writing dept. uses a lot of sources like commentaries on the Bible, encyclopedias, and books by non-JW writers, and you are allowed to do the same. It's even the smart thing to do!
Good luck!